May 24, 2010

Starting a New Chapter

If someone were to write a book about my life, everything that took place up until now would be the first, and smallest section. It would include cute anecdotes about my childhood and high school and leaving for university and many tales of debauchery from Shippensburg. But that’s pretty much it. There would be mentions of getting through hard times; issues with my brother, run-ins with the police (not my own, I assure you), several deaths in the family and things of that nature. Things that we had to get through as a family, with my mom and dad and Jennifer most of the time.
But here is where the story turns, this is section two. Now I will be depending more on my friends and peers for support than my parents. Now is the time that I will be deciding which friends to take with me into adulthood and which friends will become acquaintances from my youth.
This will be a time of renewal, of replenishment and hopefully, growth. It is also a time of great uncertainty for me. I don’t have a job, I have no idea what I’m going to do about that or where to go or even what to think about it. I haven’t completed my senior thesis and haven’t even truly started it, I don’t yet even have a place to live when I move out on Thursday, and even with all of these things going hard against me, I am comforted with the knowledge that I will be taken care of, that there is a higher power out there that will guide me through these wary times. Now I suppose is the time for me to put my faith in that power and jump off of that cliff, hoping to land safely.
There is a fantastic quote from a television show, “The best way to predict the future is to invent it.” We all invent our futures, we do so with the actions and inactions of today.
Time only will tell if what I’ve invented was right. That will have to be section three.

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